Bear cubs sound remarkably like human cubs.

Still working.  Last night saw the final brushstrokes of paint applied, minutes before the stroke of midnight.  It’s a lovely, calm shade of grey, matching perfectly the subdued, otherworldly light pouring into that North-facing room.  It was with much intention that this paint was chosen and applied.  Wave (of Focus) is what it’s called, the parenthetical being my own addition.  Can laying the groundwork for calm, sustained work, leading to fruition of certain goals be as simple as mindful painting?  Time will tell.  It certainly bodes well that this work was done during the new moon, a phase reputed for great success in achieving one’s intentions. Which was pure luck on my part, not due to clever planning, but I’ll take it nonetheless.

 

Have you been keeping up with Jewel, the Black Bear in labor?  We’ve been checking in from time to time and just this morning discovered that she had two bear cubs on Sunday morning.  Oh. My. If those newborn cub sounds don’t sound so much like newborn baby sounds… It’s almost eerie.

Happy Babymoon, Jewel.  I don’t envy you the intensity of life with (two!) newborns.

 

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January is for…

quiet.

renewal.

purging.

hibernating.

new life.

We’re not so very different from bears, are we?  This weekend’s Prairie Home Companion mentioned a black bear momma-to-be in Ely, MN who was on the verge of giving birth.  You can imagine how that got our attention, especially when it was also mentioned that we could potentially witness it via the web cam in her den, outfitted with an infrared (night vision) lens.  We’ve been checking in with Jewel intermittently and to my knowledge, she’s not yet had those cubs.

Thankfully, I’m not expecting literal new life – human, lamb, or otherwise – but I am on the verge of rebirth myself.  I’ve undertaken a major overhaul of my studio.  I’ve bought paint for those studio walls that we’ve not yet made our own.  I’m coveting chippy old step back cabinets to replace the plywood and bracket shelves that formerly organized my stuff.  This is so much more than previous purge fests; I’m reconsidering every single thing crammed into that space, making it justify its existence.  And I’m letting go. I’m letting go of the things I know I’m not actually going to make.  I’m letting go of the ideas (65 million and counting) that are not aligned with my overarching goals.  I’ve re-adopted that mantra which flew out the window the minute we moved into this new life:  just because I can make something, doesn’t mean I should.

All of this requires a balanced vacillation between thinking and doing and resting. And lots and lots of purging.

Back to it.

 

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This Moment

(via SouleMama)

{this moment} – A Friday ritual. A single photo – no words – capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

If you’re inspired to do the same, leave a link to your ‘moment’ in the comments for all to find and see.

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Kitten

Thus it was written by Isadora in 2011.  Using the brush of artistic license, she lovingly shaved months off their age when referring to the pair as “kittens” but such is her right as author.  The story, however, has gone from charming school work, pinned up for all to see, to historical record.  It seems we no longer have two cats at all.  It seems, with each passing day spent anxiously scanning the grounds from the window, that Cat Stevens has not joined us in the new year.  He’s known for not being ever-present, like his partner Ruby is; after we returned from Christmas parties away, we anxiously awaited a glimpse of him.  A strange showing of blood in the Sheep Hotel greeted our return instead.  Perhaps entirely unrelated, it remains unexplained.  A day later we spotted Stevens curled up in his favorite cushion in the basement.  That was the last we saw of him.

Perhaps he’s been invited into some warm house and kept there.  Perhaps he’ll come strolling home any minute.  Perhaps that’s all a bunch of naive, not-very-farm-realistic hooey.  Perhaps we’re down to one cat now.

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Knitting interlude

Meditate on this, whilst I crawl a bit deeper into my cave.

Does it look like those rows are a bit off in places?  Nah.  That’s just you – better adjust your screen.

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A forced whisper

I’ve been wearing the same pair of wool socks, without interruption, for the entire year; the same pair of jammies – 2/3rds of the year.  I trust that 2012 will include plenty of articulate discussion but this I take on faith alone; I’ve been without my voice since last year.  It’s a whopper of a cold that’s battered me into a (unwashed) (phlegm-y) (Marge-Simpson-sounding) sorry pile of blah.  I’m at all times within arm’s reach of Osha Root tincture, to keep the sinuses from exploding.  A while ago, I rallied and managed to haul in a pile of firewood; Cold knows no reprieve for the sick.

The Boy and I are snuggled up by that hard-won fire, sipping tea, listening to the radio.  I plan to take out my knitting and bunker down for a while, whispering my way through another day.  I may or may not change my socks and jammies.  Probably not.

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That’s more like it.

Finally the snow has arrived.  Finally.   Its absence was palpable and dingy and altogether un-Christmas-like.

The hush that’s descended with the velvet snow will be present in this space also, right on through to the start of the new year.  The computer’s off for a tune-up, the holidays are here, and there’s much wonderment and merry-making to behold.  I thank you for your devoted presence here and look forward to seeing you all fresh and new in 2012.

+ The January Class Schedule is up and a maze of links will whisk you away in a sea of details… You need only click on a class’ image for more info.

+ The Rumpelstiltskin Challenge (remember that?) is coming to a close.  While the clock’s still ticking, I hope to keep sewing myself out of the gluttonous mess that is my studio.  I promise a general recap of the whole experiment when I return.

Peace, Friends!

 

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Sewing my way out of this mess

My studio is in a state of emergency.  Fibers are everywhere – the woven kind one uses for sewing, the fluffy kind one uses for spinning and knitting.  Patterns are everywhere – the kind that comes nicely contained in an envelope and the kind that manifests on scraps of paper in the midst of a creating binge.  Thread ends and seam trimmings and snippets of fabric float about like dust motes.  Christmas gifts, too, have begun piling up in this place which has become a de facto repository for gifts waiting to be tucked into fabric gift bags.

I can find only one reasonable way out.  To start sewing.  The bulkiest bits are prioritized for their (larger) ability to open up real estate.  First up – a replacement shower curtain.  The lovely crane-filled curtain made in a previous flurry of sewing (blathered on about here) has unfortunately not withstood the intense pressure of soap build-up (it became faded and discolored) nor the pressure of the washing machine,  (defective, I think, and since replaced) which chewed the bottom hem to bits.  Our showers, while still quite functional from a utilitarian standpoint, had lost all of their aesthetic ambiance quite a while ago.  This natural-color large piece of what I presume to be linen/cotton was spotted among the standard polyester fare of a thrift store.  I printed the lovely motif with an wood block I scored at my favorite local-ish antique store.  I salvaged the upper white portion and added then new skirt and done.  Seems ridiculous that it sat around so long.

Now that I had a discolored hemp former-shower curtain to deal with (because you can’t just throw that out – it’s HEMP and crazy-expensive) I didn’t really gain anything in the Clear-Space-in-my-Studio department, did I?  I quickly cut and sewed that former shower curtain bottom into two nice drawstring sacks with which to contain some of the renegade wool clogging the studio’s arteries.  Ka-pow!

This sack is currently moonlighting as a gift bag.

This cutter quilt was taking up nearly a full cube of my fabric wall.  I hemmed and hawed and agonized over what to do with it, until I decided that the very best thing to do with it is actually the very opposite of the Too-Precious-To-Cut-Up-So-Let-it-Wallow-on-the-Shelves-For-Years approach I had been taking:  I made it into three dog beds.  Now it sits in a lovely quilted bundle under the tree.  The pugs won’t know what hit them on Christmas morn – they haven’t received gifts from us since we upended their social status by procreating.

Another cutter quilt – this one has now been cut up and used in about 5 different ways.  The most dramatic is not shown – I’m waiting for it to magically float up to the wall where it will hang in our bedroom.  That magic is pending.  The bottom hem, however, is shown above in its new incarnation as a dresser runner.  So, so lovely.  Hand quilted.  I hope she who crafted such a lovely quilt is not too terribly mad at me for cutting it up – the all-over wear is evident and comforts me that it was overwhelmingly loved in its previous life as a quilt.

Now.  Off to keep digging myself out.

 

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Your 2011 Fall Lamb Lineup

Here it is!  The Final Lamb Roster for the Fall 2011 season…five fresh new faces added to the Five Green Acres team.

Born first, Garnet’s little guy is now the Big Man About Town, appearing gargantuan in the midst of the other lambs, the way a newborn baby makes your however-much-older baby look nearly grown-up.  He’s full of energy, bounding about the winter pasture, and has likely grown an inch in the few minutes it took me to write this paragraph.  He’s a good, strong boy that shall remain nameless.  If you get my drift.

You may remember this sweet face from our little lambing adventure last week.  Now quite dry and fluffy and decidedly less yolk-colored, this sweet girl has been named Agnes.  She’s also a vibrant, strong little ewe, with a penchant for sneaking out the lamb-size hole in the gate.  Not that we intended for a lamb-size hole to be present in that gate; boarding it up is on the lengthy To-Do list, but until then, Agnes enjoys going on walkabout and returning at her leisure. (the very first pic in this post is also Agnes)

This wee little ram was born to Lily on Thursday afternoon.  His body is big, his legs are long, but he’s all bones.  The journey from womb to world seems to have taken its toll on him; he faltered shortly after being born, curling up lethargically (and still wet) and refused to start nursing.  Oh, he had me worried – I broke into my stash of frozen sheep colostrum gleaned from Garnet last Spring and administered it to him through an emergency feeding tube.  Then I brought him inside, wrapped in a blanket, and rocked him in front of the woodstove for a good half hour or more.  Really.  He slept the whole time, waking only after the kids discovered the presence of a LAMB IN THE HOUSE! Kisses were what he needed most of all, it seemed, after a belly of warm milk and a good snuggle, and after getting a good handful of them, he took to his wobbly legs.

I ushered him back out to the Sheep Hotel, where his worried momma and a heat lamp awaited his return, and headed off to the Open Sewing Night I was hosting, wrought with worry.  When I returned later to check up on him, I entered the sheep enclosure, and did the customary head count to make sure all of the lambs were accounted for.  Baby, momma and baby, momma and baby, I counted.  Wait.  One, two…three lambs out and about??  That’s one more than I expected, since Lily’s little guy was penned inside the Hotel.  Sylvia!  Unassuming Sylvia had birthed a lamb quietly on the pasture – a healthy lamb already standing and starting to nurse.  That was more than I bargained for!  I carefully led the newborn and Sylvia into the draft-free Sheep Hotel, set up another cozy spot for them to begin their How-do-you-do bonding time and went back to attending to Lily’s little guy.  Switching back and forth between the two newborn lambs, I had plenty to do – help dry off Sylvia’s new arrival (a ewe!), try to help the little guy find Lily’s generous teat.  I was quite distracted when Sylvia turned her backside to me and in my face was another lamb, in the process of being born. WOWEE!  What a night!  I gently eased the second lamb (a twin ewe!) onto the ground just as Andrew made his way to the Hotel.  In a single evening, lambing had come to a close.  Garnet, Gloria, Lily, and then Sylvia, done.   The combination of expectant ewes paired with the onslaught of The Holidays could have been hairy, but the timing was to our favor.  Pure luck!

Sylvia’s twin girls have been named Camille and Clementine and, as is befitting of twins and their competition for limited resources, are nursing almost constantly.  They are tiny, sweet things – seemingly fragile but determined.  I’m confident that they’ll be vigorous little ones, confident too that Sylvia’s a pro at this twin thing, having already borne one set in the Spring. (Violet and The Pharaoh) She’s a keeper.

Camille, the oldest and biggest, is on the left, resting her wee head on Clementine’s bony rump.  Fill out those wrinkles, Girlies!

Back to Lily’s little guy – I’m not quite ready to take him off of my Things to Worry About list.  He is definitely eating, at least enough to keep him alive, but he spends a lot of time curled up in a sleeping heap.

That makes this sight the most heart-warming and relief-laden of all.  I have great hopes for this little ram; his parentage of lovely, spinnable Corriedale (Lily) and super-soft Rambouillet (Sam the Sham) promises to be a lovely fiber mix.  My hands are twitching just thinking about it…

 

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Join me for more lambing?

Having now experienced a handful of lamb births, I felt just cocky enough to head out to the latest with camera in hand.  Join me?  Note:  if you’re squeamish about raw, real things like the birthing process….then toughen up – this is good stuff!

It’s Gloria this time.  One look at her posture on the far end of the pasture (what alliteration!) tells us immediately that she’s deep in the throes of labor.  Shown here, she’s about to push, after which she returns to her feet to walk around, browse for greens to nibble, call out some chatty baas.

I had spied her from the house, looking out the window in their general direction as I’m now in the habit of doing.  She had separated herself from the rest of the flock, and when I headed out for a closer look at her tail end, I could see the front hooves and tip of a nose that had emerged.  Now, Rookie Midwives, (which I most definitely still am) you might think this “crowning” would mean that lamb is going to come sliding out in the very next push, you might get really excited and hold your breath and try not to blink in fear of missing it all.  Nope.  Not this time, not last time either, in the case of Garnet.  Those creamy white hoof tips and that eerily-purple nose will be all that we’re looking at for the next 45 minutes or so.  In the meantime, however, we pause and wonder if maybe we should give the momma some space and head back into the house for some time-killing busy-work.  Yes, let’s.

When we come out, 20 or so minutes later, we find that the head is much further out – good progress, Momma!  I think this is when we realize that taking some photos is in order, because how many people have witnessed this?  Too few, I decide, as I snap away.

The pattern for Gloria remains the same – lay down, push, gain a teeny bit of ground as the head emerges a bit more, stand up, lose a bit of that ground.  We decide to get closer, circle her for a better look.

As we snap pictures, we vacillate between pure awe and self-satisfaction for capturing these moments on film and a nagging, ever-growing realization of our profound ignorance – how long can a baby of any kind remain in that half-in, half-out limbo?  Still attached to the umbilical cord, breathing shouldn’t be necessary yet, even though the nose is emerged, but look how purple everything is!  Scary.  But Garnet’s little guy hung out in that very position for a while too, before I got worried and yanked him out.  He was fine, of course, and I admonished myself for not letting the momma do her work, which she was clearly capable of.  But this time – was it the same?  I carefully poked at the very still face.”Hey you – are you ok?” Nothing.  I see the tongue hanging out the side of the mouth in that classic cartoon portrayal of death and that was it.  Oh shit.  Have I just photographed a stillborn lamb?  Have we waited too long to intercede?  We race now to the doctor’s bag – yes, come with me and help me push this damn goat out of the way.  We pull on the shoulder-length gloves and lube up.

Gently, now we will pull.  Wait for her contractions; she’ll start pushing again soon.  There’s plenty to grab on to now, and just a little tug is necessary to pull the little one out.

We wait with held breaths, waiting for a sign that the little one is alive.  And it moves!  It wearily shakes its head as if waking up from a long dream.  Momma Gloria snaps into gear and begins the lengthy clean-up.  Lick, lick, lick.  Lambs, we see, are born with a slick coating that Momma instinctively begins cleaning off.  The little one opens its eyes and the very first thing is sees is a fuzzy haze of our ape-like staring and the mix of relief and awe on our faces.  We let out that breath now, resume our normal breathing patterns.

Each moment finds the little one waking up, gaining strength.  Now it begins to lift its head.

And in the very next moment, it begins to lift itself up on its legs.  So shaky.  Again and again it tries this, and within about five minutes of being born, it’s up on four legs.  It’s hard for us to gauge the time, though, suspended as we are in the sublime witness of new life.

Slowly, we emerge from this captivating trance and regain a bit more composure.  What kind of lamb do we have here? we wonder and carefully take a peek at its undercarriage.  A girl.  Ah, sweet ewe.    Carefully now, we pick up the now-quite-frisky little one and slowly, slowly, lead Momma into the Sheep Hotel, where the covers have been turned down, the heat is on, and a warm meal awaits.  Slowly, we make our way up there, remembering how that very same journey in the spring was a stressful and awkward transition, because we moved too quickly and Momma lost sight of her lamb.

Is there another waiting to be born, we wonder?  Peeking back behind Gloria we see the trail of what looks to be the placenta.  The red fluid-filled sacs that are slowly emerging now usually signal the end of lambing, so we surmise (correctly) that the little ewe had no roommates in the womb.  We help dry her off a bit with the mountain of clean, dry towels tucked into the doctor’s bag and wait eagerly to witness her nursing.  She does – gawky at first, trying every little protrusion of wool and skin till she finds the one that fits her mouth perfectly and releases pure warmth into her belly.  And we truly relax now.  Our work is done, all is well.  Everyone is safe and warm and healthy and gaining strength.  It’s a good day to start off the week.

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